Sometimes we concentrate too much on causes and consequences, without out any regard to the moment.... that's the way most of us have been living. I did.
The problem starts when you start to pin way too many things on future. Future is mystic and our every grand plan materializes only in future !!!..This way we loose our present and In the whole process, we search for answers in our past. I don't why we rely so much on future, that i'll do this and that....why I'm not doing those thing now?? This attitude is so infectious that once you got infected, you will be bogged down by it for a long time....I guess its safe to term it as "Loser Phenomena"( LP)....pathetic but very genetic!!
I brainstormed for many days to find the exact relation between "what I want", "what I deserve" and "what I get". I guess the root cause of whole problem is due to misplaced importance given to above three factors.
Factor 1:" What I want" always tends to infinity.
Factor 2: "What I deserve" is an exponential function which always tends to zero, when Factor 1 reaches its upper limit
Factor 3 : "What I get" well this factor is dependent on so many external factors that virtually it has no relation with above two factors.
Empirical Relation Between Different Factors
Okay enough of maths, well I don't know whether this relation makes any sense....well i see some resonance when it comes to me...i had LP and it left me empty and shallow. LP results into loss of faculty of judging people.....and you end up being loner. The cure for this "future fantasy" is almost non-existent.
I guess realizing the very fact that I live more in future then present took almost four years and i learned through hard way...getting hit by a meteor shower....loss of hope, blackout and wounded....Trying hard to get over it.... :) :) :)
